I haven’t given a progress report since October on this little quest of mine, so I thought I would “fess up”, now that the New Year has rolled over and it’s time to start things fresh.
I have made ZERO progress since the last post, and that is honestly a positive. Over Thanksgiving and Christmas I put back on 7 lbs., topping out at 351 lbs. I’ll completely admit that I am addicted to Coca Cola. I could go several months without having one, and then I can have just a sip of Coke and suddenly I need 3 a day. It’s sad. I will no longer judge smokers who keep trying to quit smoking but keep failing. I will now commend them for continuing to get back up on the wagon after falling off time and time again. At least they haven’t given up trying. This addiction is a very serious thing for my “Husky” human shell. In my older years it’s not dealing with processing sugar very well so I gain weight rather quickly while drinking sugary drinks of the soft variety. So between drinking more than my fair share of Cokes (which are so tempting when they are stored in an icy-cold glass bottle) and eating beautiful and rich foods over the holidays my body began to resist. On the 27th of December at a family holiday gathering, I think my blood sugar hit the ceiling so bad that I thought I was going to pass out. My body is having issues regulating my blood sugar levels and it’s been staying high. Obviously, I don’t want that to happen or feel bad continously so I’m getting back on this “2X t-shirt” wagon again.
A 2x Darth Vader shirt I can't buy and enjoy! GRRR!
So since that night, I’ve completely changed what I’m doing. Coke is completely out! I’m really limiting or eliminating sugary snacks from my diet. I’ve been re-reading the book Eat This, Not That and have incorporated a lot of the suggestions the book’s author lends about the “8 Foods You Should Eat Everyday” into my diet and it’s working. I really like his explanation of what is in some foods that make them so beneficial for you. Like did you know that the Walnut is one of the best nuts you can eat?! It’s supposed to be awesome on many different levels. So far I have lost the 7 lbs. I gained over the holiday, thus putting me back to square one again.
I’ve also been doing a lot of praying because I know I can’t do this alone. The Holy Spirit is going to have to kick in where I begin to trail off because when it comes to food I am a weak human being. In the past, I allowed the Holy Spirit to take control of my eating habits before a 72 hours of prayer and praise a couple of years ago at church. For 10 days straight, I did a vegetable-and-water-only fast and it was a great time building my relationship with the Spirit that way. The Holy Spirit and I would go grocery shopping together and It would direct what I should buy and eat. I just listened and followed. Over the span of 10 days I ended up losing 13 lbs., but more importantly I grew closer to God by obeying Him. It also proved that if I listen to the Holy Spirit and not to the temptation and lies that constantly swirl around me, things will always improve. The devil likes to try and convince you to just accept who you are and not try, and for those 10 days I didn’t accept what he was slinging. He is out to destroy me, one Coke at a time. The big jerk!
So here I am 2 months later starting over. I’ve lost that time, but I still want to fit into that 2X t-shirt so I’m back on the wagon. That, and I don’t want my pancreas to shut down! 
I don’t believe in New Year Resolutions because I think a great majority of the time we’re just lying to ourselves, but I will promise to report more often this year on this quest. I’ve been seeing a lot of cool t-shirts I can’t wear and I want them in a BAD way!
Current Weight: 344 lbs.
Best of luck to you K. I too struggle with the doughnut demon….I just so love food!